Me & Myself

I can hear my breathing, wait... am I really breathing? I think I am but I hardly feel my heartbeat.

For a period of time, I can't feel my heartbeat, I can't feel I'm actually living. I do not know what I was thinking or what I was doing. I was like a robot doing my daily routine, everything seems making sense but deep down I know I was just not right at all.

I was alone in an invisible cave I created it myself. I was alone when I'm alone, I was alone when I was in crowd, I was alone when I'm having tea with friends, I was alone while I was talking to my friend.

Although I keep telling myself that I shouldn't feel like this and I need to walk out from my cave, but somehow I am just enjoying being inside and I refuse to walk out. Someday, someday...I will...for the time being, I just want to be alone, just me & myself...